Tuesday, April 10

Open heart moment:

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     Yesterday was hard, today was hard, tomorrow will be harder. I’ve felt especially stuck lately in the messy space between peace and turmoil, joy and heartache, and because I can’t make sense of my jumbled thoughts most of the time I just don’t share. I’m constantly trying to change that though, and to open up during more of the hard moments along with the sweet moments. 

     Tomorrow will be 9 years since my late husband Martin and I were married, and also 1 year and 10 months since his death. 3 years since my grief process began. Every day I feel happiness from all the beauty and blessings in my life, and every day I also feel broken inside from the trauma of losing him the way I did.  

     This is Ashley, Jenna, and Hailey. These three warrior ladies are just a few who know much of how that feels. We’re great friends, we’re all mothers, and we’re all widows. We’ve all lost our sweethearts, we’ve all held our children beside our husbands casket, and we’re trying our best to move forward every day and find joy. We’ve learned the hard way to not take a single moment for granted or wait for the sweeter things in life but to soak it all in, every moment or every day.

     A couple months ago (When I was still pregnant with Alice:)) we were able to get together and stay up way too late eating pizza and laughing and crying together. It is comforting to know people who have been to a similar dark and twisty place as me, but it’s also so important to know that we’re all (you included) tied together by the pain of our worst experiences. We might not have all had the same successes, but experiencing such immense heartbreak in any sense ties us all together in empathy and compassion for others’ pain. 

     I have the huge honor of speaking again at the A Reason To Stand conference, this time in Las Vegas and I would love to meet you there! You can see all the info HERE, but It’ll be on the 28th of this month and you can use my code: FOX for $25 off your ticket! I love connecting with so many of you and hearing your stories at these conferences, and I hope you can make it. ♡♡


Sunday, April 1

Happy Easter


      Happy Easter to you! 

     Today was a really good one for us. It was peaceful and sweet and full of so much excitement from the kids, from the minute they woke up to see their Easter baskets to our reverent family prayer before bed. I caught myself smiling through so much of the day watching them so happy. 
     My heart feels really overwhelmed with all the extreme emotions I feel on a daily basis, but today, in particular, I just felt so much gratitude. I hope you had a beautiful day no matter what you celebrate or believe, and that you were close to people you love and maybe enjoyed some yummy treats!

     Best of luck to you in the new week! I have so much goodness coming:)


Saturday, March 31

Why Pampers Pure is Perfect for Us

     Disclosure: I’m excited to be a Pampers Pure #PureTribe Ambassador. I’ve been provided compensation 
and they’re keeping me stocked with diapers! All thoughts and opinions are my own.

     Well, it's been one busy, sleepy, noisy, sweet month we've had with our new little Alice, and one month as a family of 8! When she was born my oldest Eleanor was still 7, so for a little while I had 6 kids- 7 and under, which is still kinda nuts to me.haha It also makes it pretty understandable though why most of the questions I get these days (that aren't about hair) are about everything parenting and baby related, most recently being about my favorite baby essentials in particular. So, here I am today to share a couple of true essentials that I truly love, and explain a little more why I decided to join the Pampers #PureTribe!
         As many of you know, before Richard joined our family I was pretty certain that I wouldn't be having any more children and so had given all of our baby stuff away. That meant that we got to start completely fresh when I found out I was expecting, which was a neat and unusual chance for a mom of five. I got to really decide what was actually essential and needed when it comes to baby supplies, and also to make more informed decisions about what was truly the best for my baby. Enter the newly launched Pampers Pure Collection! We got to start out fresh when it came to diapers and wipes as well, and we've been so happy with that choice.

     I know so many moms like myself that have been hoping for diapers and wipes in the more 'natural' category, but have been let down many times when it came to their overall protection and durability or how gentle they really were on my babies' sensitive skin. That being said, when I first heard about the new Pampers Pure Collection of diapers and wipes I honestly thought they must be too good to be true, and Richard and I wondered where the compromise was going to come. After trying them for a while now though I can honestly say that they're exactly what I've been hoping for since I started having kids!
    The diapers are made of super soft and gentle premium cotton, plant-based fibers and other thoughtfully selected materials, they're 100% free of chlorine bleaching, parabens, natural rubber latex, fragrances, and lotions, but with all the same protection we've come to trust and depend on from Pampers, even for our super active Evie! We also love the prints, the elastic edges don't leave harsh lines on their little thighs, they fit great, and it's also amazing to me (as a mom of particularly sensitive-skinned babies) that Alice is a month old now and hasn't dealt with a single diaper rash. That's a huge deal in our house!

     The Aqua Pure wipes are also incredibly soft and silky while still being tough and durable, they're 99% water making them the highest water content wipe available and great for allover use on babies, and they're designed to help maintain the pH of baby's delicate skin. This feature in particular impressed Richard with his background in healthcare, because people don't often think about what a big difference that can make in caring for delicate skin.
     Bottom line, we as parents try hundreds of products and brands looking for the very best for our children, and knowing that these are the diapers that my babies are wearing 24/7 gives me great peace of mind. I've gone through upwards of around 30,000 diapers in my years as a mom, and I've tried many different brands that have attempted to achieve what Pampers has successfully achieved with their Pure Collection! I have been let down enough times that I was cautious about these as well, but I'm so glad instead to be able to stand behind Pampers Pure and share them with you, and tell you that there's no need for compromise anymore between performance and pure materials and adorable designs:)

     Have you tried these yet? I'd love to hear your thoughts!
Take care, and thanks so much for visiting!

Monday, March 12

in the trenches together

     Hey gang:) I posted this glamorous postpartum photo and caption to my Instagram last week and was so touched by the response that I decided to share it here as well. I'm sure that many of you already follow along over there, but for those that don't, I really wanted to see if you had anything to add as well. I was blown away by the many comments saying essentially "me too!" and sharing their personal stories, and I just love any and all chances for us to relate as women and mothers, so here goes:

     Alice is 9 days old today and I'm 9 days into my postpartum journey for the 6th time:) So far it's been heaven, filled with tiny clothes and grunts, and just lovin' on our newborn as much as possible. But there's also been cramping, no sleep, the mesh/diaper situation (lol), double mastitis, fever, body aches, so much soreness and exhaustion, etc, etc. It's kicking my butt a bit and yet it's SO worth it, of course.♡

     We face incredible risks and sacrifice SO much physically and emotionally to have babies, and we willingly do it again knowing what it'll cost. Yes, it's a huge blessing to have the opportunity, but, that doesn't mean it's not crazy brutal sometimes, or that we have to pretend it's all sunshine or we're ungrateful or unloving. 

     I feel like every time a woman shares something hard and upfront about pregnancy/postpartum life/motherhood they're told by some creep things like they 'shouldn't complain' or they should 'keep it to themselves'. People want more authenticity but then those raw posts are often the ones most ridiculed and picked apart. I've seen too many vulnerable photos taken down:( 

     We're all in the trenches together but on our OWN individual journeys as different as we are from one another, and yet there's still SO much comparing and telling others that they shouldn't express struggles because someone somewhere has it worse. Or the opposite, that they can't share self-love or they're narcissistic. Ugh. 🤦🏻‍♀️

     STOP listening to those that want to put you in a box and bully you into feeling badly. Hear me when I say that YOUR body and YOUR sense of self-worth are YOURS alone, and YOU decide how to feel and what to do and when. We DO need more open photos online, and that starts with encouraging and empowering instead of judging and criticizing.

     This isn't a particularly vulnerable picture I know, but I think it does show a more raw moment from my day compared to the photos I post more often, and I feel ok sharing BECAUSE of other brave women and because of YOU, this incredibly uplifting and encouraging group of sweethearts. 

     So thank you thank you.♡ You do way more for me than you could ever know, and I jus love you. 

*steps off soapbox*