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Saturday, May 9

a bit of adjusting

Look who's back:)

I've wanted to continue writing posts throughout this whole ordeal, mostly for my own benefit of course- to help sort out my thoughts and try to make sense of this new life of ours, not due to any pressure or things of that sort. Mostly though, I've wanted to share because I've really come to feel so connected and bonded with all of you on such a high level, and I've realized how much every exchange with you guys (my online family) since the initial announcement helps me feel stronger and braver. And I need all the help I an get lately.
It has been so much harder to write though than ever before, not only because our days are incredibly full and fast-paced, but because every time I get a chance to sit down at my computer and put my fingers on the keyboard, I want to type out happy, positive words.. encouraging words, words that teach or inspire or uplift, and I just haven't been able pull my thoughts together enough to even write out the raw, heavy words that have filled me up for the last couple of weeks. It just feels way too foreign to me.

I've just always been the optimist, always! Always finding the good in even the worst situations. It's not that I just didn't share the bad days on my blog, it's that even on the bad days there was always something to be happy about and highlight on, and that's just a lot harder these days. Too hard some days. I guess my point is that for really the first time on this blog and moving forward, I will be sharing many more thoughts and feelings that are only for me, only about me, that I don't expect to benefit anyone in any way.

So bare with me? haha I promise that little-by-little I have every intention of bringing back all my favorite things to write about on my blog- the hairstyles, the recipes, the product features, the style posts, collections of favorite things that look yummy and make me happy, etc, but for now I'm going to focus on opening up my heart all the way and figuring out this new chapter of our life.

So, that's it for today I think:) I love you guys, you've been such angels of positivity and encouragement lately, and it feels so good to have a voice on here again! I hope to keep this up every day moving forward. Wish me luck- we'll see how I do.haha

P.S. if you're not following on Instagram, you really should consider it:)

38 comments:

  1. I'm a very new reader and sorry to find that I've discovered your blog at such an intense time in your life. Just know that even people who don't know much about you have you and your family in their thoughts and prayers.

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  2. We were thrown into the cancer world a few months ago as well. After a few breakdowns, I realized I had to talk about it. The purging is painful but necessary. I imagine much more painful knowing how many people will read it. I hope you only find love and encouragement from your readers. Your family is in my prayers.

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  3. You know, your blog, your family and you, are so loved. Most people come here not just because of the beautiful pictures or hairstyles but because of you guys. This will be a hard season. So, so hard, but I'm convinced there will also be a lot of beautiful in the midst of all the crap, hard, cancersucks-ness. There's always hope. But know that even the posts that will be filled with despair, confusion, processing, lack of hope or whatever this season may bring; you will have people reading, praying with you and hurting with you. Thank you for being honest and raw.

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  4. Emily, you are always so positive and inspiring. You've shared enough joy and happiness with us, that we can now shower it back to you and, in some way, help you through this... in fact, we WANT to help you through this. You need the love, positivity, and encouragement now more than ever. Bare your thoughts, dear girl - you are baring them to a safe haven. Prayers for you!

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  5. You're doing such a great job of staying strong and you should be very proud of yourself for that. Its okay to not be able to find the positive in a situation because, sometimes, life hands us things that just really suck. I'm so sorry that you and Martin have to go through this but it really is an inspiration to witness the way you're handling it all.

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  6. Wishing you the very best in these difficult times. I'm so sorry to hear about things for your family. You have support here!

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  7. You have no responsibility to write happy, cheerful thoughts. EVERY ONE of your readers understands and knows the utter shock and uncertainty you must feel at this time in your life. If you don't feel like writing, don't. We will still be here. If you feel like writing, write what your heart tells you to write...what you need to write...what is good for your soul. We will all be right here regardless...either way...loving, praying, and supporting you. <3

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  8. Hi Emily,
    I've always loved reading your blog, not just for the content, but for the way that your positive personality shines through in your posts. I know it sounds a bit cheesy, but your blog always has such a happy vibe and reading it helps me get through my bad days too. I'm so sorry your family is going through this. I wish nothing but the best for your whole family!

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  9. Emily we are counseled to mourn with those who mourn and comfort those who need comfort. I know not only have an online family that will be strong with you but you also have such a great family. We will always be strong for you. Cherish everyday. You are strong whether in tears or smiles and cherish your sweet little babies. I know from experience they can make the best of the worst of situations!!!

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  10. You and your family are so adored. I hope things turn out okay at your end. Stay strong, Emily!

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  11. Emily, I admire you so much. I'm praying for your beautiful family. 💟

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  12. I felt so humbled by your strength and bravery you are a beautiful soul my thoughts are with you and your precious family at this time, HOPE IS stronger then fear, love to you all xx

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  13. My thoughts and prayers for you and Martin. I can't even begin to understand what you are going through but I know you'll find a way to pull through to the other side. Wishing all the best for you and your family.

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  14. Thank you so much for sharing - Martin and your entire family are in my prayers!

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  15. You write whatever you need to write. I am so sorry you guys are facing this, but please know that so many people that have never even met you are standing behind you in support. We are praying! Blessings to you and your sweet family.

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  16. Even though we don't know each other, I've been a reader for some time and my stomach dropped when I heard the news about your husband. One of my husband's close friends was recently diagnosed with lymphoma-- it's so scary that it can happen to anyone at any age, but at the same time, any one at any age can also have the strength to fight it. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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  17. I hope that continuing to write can help you find a little peace away from all the craziness!

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  18. You and your blog are so inspiring! I have nominated you for the You have been nominated for a Liebster Award. I think your blog amazing and that's why I have chosen you. I know you are going through a difficult time and understand if you think your time is better spend doing other things but I love you blog and wanted to nominate you!

    My blog about the award will go live tomorrow (5/11) - http://asmalltowngirlsconfessions.blogspot.com/2015/05/monday-morning-coffee-liebster-award.html

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  19. Emily,
    You must feel free to share whatever you want on your blog that can help you to get through this hard time. We've all been so touched by the tragic event that occurred in your life recently and you can be sure that nobody will judge you in any way. You are a model of courage and strength for all of us.

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  20. I'm so sorry that you and your family are having to deal with this. Just remember how many people love you and are praying for you guys!

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  21. We are with you every step of the way and only want you to do what feels right to you and makes you happy. Emily, you inspire us and we lift you up in return! Nothing but positive vibes and prayers coming your way!!!

    livingoncloudandreanine.blogspot.com

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  22. Thinking of your family often and sending up prayers!

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  23. Praying for you and your sweet family.

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  24. We're here for you however you need us!

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  25. Emily, just take your pace, take your time. Follow the signs that make you feel better, and be strong with your family. You all will win this battle :D

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  26. Share away, Emily. Never fear, this piece was a beautiful and inspirational as the others, even if you didn't mean it that way. We're all here <3

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  27. I think a blog is a very personal thing. While you could find light and happiness all around you, you were inspired to write about it. Now, you find yourself in a situation that is not all light and happiness and so that is what you share. It's all part of your journey and the journey is shared with your readers. Who knows how many people will find guidance and comfort from what you write. Go with your heart.

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  28. I admit your courage and strength!!! Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way

    www.mspamblam.com

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  29. I am just catching up on my fav blogs and found out about your husband's condition. I am so deeply shocked for you all!!! And putting him and your beautiful family on our family's prayer list RIGHT NOW! Love & light!!!

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  30. looking forward to your posts.. Your strength and courage is so inspiring! xo
    Jamie
    www.candystilettos.com

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  31. Glad that you're back, and I'm looking forward to reading whatever thoughts you choose to share with us in you're upcoming posts!

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  32. Emily I haven't been able to stop thinking about you and your little family for the last week. Sending you all the positive thoughts in the world and looking forward to hearing all you want to share.

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  33. Hi Emily, I've been reading your blog and following your instagram for a long time now but I'm not much of a commentor. I just wanted to say that I'm thinking of you all and sending as many positive thoughts you way as I can.

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  34. You and your family continue to stay in my prayers, Emily... I have been thinking of you all each and every day. xo

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  35. Hang in there girl, you are doing good!!!!

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  36. I was just thinking about you and how you're family is doing. Many continued thoughts and prayers and yes please use this place as your outlet, not everything has to be rainbows and unicorns :)

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  37. It's ok to feel and share the low moments...I've learned in my own life, that when I shared those...my support group connected better with me. That they too would have those feelings and unless someone's shares..we all secretly think we are going crazy. The relief comes when you have a "aaahhh...you feel that way too" connection. Prayers and XOXO, Michelle

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