Wednesday, April 29

Cancer

Many of you know that nearly two weeks ago now I sent out a request over social media for prayers and happy thoughts to be sent out way, not sharing exactly what had happened with us. The words to write this post have been forming ever since as we've been updating family and friends, though I was hoping I'd never have to write it here. Now that it's clear I can't move forward without publishing, my heart is pounding and I can't quite form proper sentences in my head, but I'll do my best. 

Last weekend on Friday, Martin my sweetheart was diagnosed with aggressive Stage 4 Melanoma Cancer. 

On Friday the 17th he was pre-diagnosed with Metastatic Melanoma, from the results of a few different tests and scans that'd been done on a large lump under his arm in his lymph-nodes, which had appeared and grown very quickly. We had about a week to wait for definitive results, but the doctors that'd reviewed his scans felt quiet certain.

Knowing of the friendship and love I have in so many of you, I decided to reach out and ask for your support while we waited for the results to come in, not sharing the suspicions in hopes that they would be prove to be false. SO many of you replied with such sweet comments and messages of strength and encouragement, sharing my request with your friends and families, and the emails started coming in. I was instantly overwhelmed by all the compassionate thoughts of so many who I've never even met, and right away I knew that my tribe was behind us and that we didn't have to move forward alone.

After a long weekend of research and phone calls, messages with family, etc, we decided to try to get an appointment with some very acclaimed doctors in the Melanoma field to find out more. On Martin and Sophie's birthday we packed all four kiddies and my 8 month bump in the car and drove out of state with not much more than the clothes on our backs for Martin's first appointment, not knowing how long we'd be gone or what we were going to find out exactly.

Day after day, we kept finding out they were going to do more tests, another scan, more blood-work, another biopsy, more needles. We weren't very hopeful for good news since none of the Doctors were very optimistic. They found multiple spots on his liver, his brain and other organs, though without any melanoma spots on his skin he is part of a low statistic that didn't get it from UV rays. We ended up staying there for five exhausting days, leaving with his final diagnoses, a binder with his treatment options, and the opinion of many that he'd be lucky to even have five years left.
(photos by Ashlee Brooke Photography, hairstyle by Emma's parlour, makeup by Jessica Marie)

Having been home for a few days now, we've been overwhelmed again by all the sweet friends and family reaching out to help in so many ways, and I can't thank everyone enough! We have another week or so to make up our minds about what direction of treatment we want to go in since Marty's case is quite time sensitive, and we're up to our ears in decisions.

More than anything right now I just want our life to feel normal again, and have been fighting for any sliver of our daily routine before this all happened. I've found myself craving to get my fingers on the keyboard again too, but I knew as I said before that until I shared the news that I couldn't move forward with any other type of posts. Once I find the courage to post this it'll feel the best to move on with my regular blogging as much as possible, though I fully plan on sharing many more 'journaling' type posts with updates and such as things happen.

If you have any questions or comments you can feel free to share them, and since we're having a big week with big decisions, I have to ask again that if you and your people can spare any prayers for us, they would be most welcome. I hope that sharing the details of our journey will not only help me but help others, just as the goal of this blog has always been.

Much love, 

251 comments:

  1. Thoughts and prayers to your family, Emily.

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  2. Sending much love and prayers your way. We will add your family to our nightly prayers.

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  3. Oh my gosh, Emily I am so sorry To hear this :( praying for a cure and many years with your sweetheart ahead. Xoxo

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  4. So sorry to hear this news, sending prayers for improved health and strength

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  5. Emily,

    I am so sorry to hear this news. I have really enjoyed the openness and bright spirit with which you share your daily life with us, and although I know I cannot truly understand what you are going through right now, I want to give you and your family my sincerest, deepest sympathy and strongest prayers. Whatever you and Martin decide to do with this sad change in circumstances, I am sure your community of fans and supporters will stand wholeheartedly behind you.

    Love and good wishes,
    Jane D.
    (Brandon, MB, Canada)

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  6. Sending many prayers your way!

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  7. I am crying as I read this. Your family will be in my family's prayers.

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  8. I am so so so sorry. I have family who have won and lost battles with cancer and all I can say is follow your promptings you receive through prayer. Prayers sent your way!

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  9. Sending love and the best vibes your way. Stay as unflinchingly strong as we all know you are. You've got the Internet behind you. <3

    Meg @ adventuresinverdance.com

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  10. Sending love and the best vibes your way. Stay as unflinchingly strong as we all know you are. You've got the Internet behind you. <3

    Meg @ adventuresinverdance.com

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  11. I am so sorry to hear this. Cancer sucks. I can't think of anything better to say than that. It is truly the worst. I wish you both as much comfort as you need to get through this hard time. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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  12. Emily,
    I've never met you, but my heart aches for you. I know that sometimes life can throw something at us that takes our breath away, and stops us in our tracks. . Please know that I'm praying for you all and praying for good news.
    Sincerely,
    Alexandra

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  13. I am so, so sorry to hear this, Emily. I can't even imagine what you're going through. You can bet I'll be praying for all of you---for strength, and hope, and happiness, and health. Thank you for sharing this with us, it's an honor to be included in your tribe.

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  14. Praying for you and your family.

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  15. I will pray that you find clarity and peace as you move forward with treatment.

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  17. Oh Emily, I am so very terribly sorry to hear this news. You have one of the most beautiful souls, and I know that you will be able to get through this. Just looking at all the kind comments here and on your blog should let you know how loved the two of you are. You and Martin will be in my prayers as you face this together. Thank you so much for sharing your life and your journey with us, and know we will share our love and prayers with you.
    Best wishes,
    Cait

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  18. I cannot imagine how overwhelmed you must feel. Stay strong!! Lots of prayers and love comin right up!! ❤️

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  19. Oh Emily! I'm so sorry your precious family is going through this! Sending lots of love and positive thoughts your way and hoping for a quick recovery!
    Nidhi
    An Unblurred Lady

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  20. Sending lots of thoughts and prayers!

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  21. My goodness. Emily, my heart aches for you. I've never met you but I can truly say you've inspired me toward better motherhood and better marriage through your blog over the last year. Your life, family and marriage suggest a faith that will most certainly carry you and Martin through this now. You guys are strong, and we believe our God is stronger still. All my prayers to you and your precious ones.

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  23. Sending my sincere prayers and so much love for you guys! Such a beautiful couple! I believe in miraculous healing and recovery! <3<3<3

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  24. My heart hurts for you. Praying continuous love, courage, comfort, and grace for your whole family.

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  25. What shattering new for you and your family. I am thinking of you and sending positivity and prayers to you all. Take care. V x

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  26. I'm sorry you and your family are going through this trial. My prayers are with you for a full and speedy recovery.

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  27. That's horrible! I hope everything works out for your lovely family. Stay strong. Im sending all my love and prayers.

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  28. I don't even know what to say... I am so sorry! Will be praying for you and your family. God bless.

    {{{hugs}}} mikéla davelyn
    www.simplydavelyn.com

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  29. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SsROoV7grQ8 Cured stage 4 melanoma. Healthy and thriving.

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  30. Healing thoughts and prayers for Martin and your family! Don't worry about us, you write whatever and whenever makes sense for you! Lots of love xoxo

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  31. Thoughts and prayers for you and your family!

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  32. Oh Emily I am so sorry. My heart is burdened for y'all at this news. I cannot imagine what you are feeling. Please know that I will be petitioning the Lord on Martin's behalf, and yours; praying earnestly for his health, and emotional strength for you both as y'all navigate this scary road.

    With much love
    - Jen

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  33. That is so tough. It's amazin your whole family (and the kids) could be at the hospital. Praying for you and your family.

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  34. Oh, Hun, I'm so sorry. I can't even really say anything other than that I am honestly praying for you right after posting this & will continue to pray for your family daily. I am also a blogger & longtime reader/follower & just know that your online community loves you & supports you!

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  35. Sending thoughts and prayers to the entire family, stay strong.

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  36. Emily this is so awful. I am so so sorry to hear about this. Cancer sucks, and this whole thing is totally unfair. I hope that Martin fights like crazy!! Statistics and averages are just that - your situation can be completely different. Good luck with all your decisions this week. I - along with many other faithful readers - are thinking about you. xo

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  37. awww this heart wrenching dear. but you know nothing is impossible with God you just have to keep your faith in him. be strong. I'll be praying for you and your family.http://anotsosecretlife2011.blogspot.com/

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  38. Even though we've never met, my heart sinks at this blow delivered to you and your family. I pray for better news still to come and that God's love and mercy surrounds you all now more than ever. Peace be with you.

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  39. Oh! My heart is breaking. I cannot even imagine! I am honestly and truly praying for family! That the Lord would meet you in your raw need and heart break and comfort the deepest parts of your souls!

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  40. Emily, although I do not know you my heart goes out to you. I am believing that a miracle can happen in this situation. We are praying for you and believing for healing. I pray that you find peace in the midst of this decision making process and hope even in the light of this devastating news. You are an inspiration for so many.

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  41. I will be praying for you and your loves.

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  42. Emily, I am so sorry to hear that news. Many are thinking of you and your family. Since he didn't get melanoma from UV Rays, how did he get it? Or, how did you know something was off enough to get checked out?
    Everything will work out :)

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  43. Wow, this is such a shock to hear, I can only imagine how you might be feeling right now, I am so sorry that you and your family are going through this. I have little to offer you other than my thoughts, my prayers and my wishes sent out into the universe for a successful treatment course and hope for recovery.

    You have offered so much to so many people in terms of inspiration, motivation and so forth, and I hope that you are receiving now as much as you have given over the years.

    You, your husband and your children will be in my thoughts and will be in my prayers.

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  44. Sending love and thoughts your way. I enjoy reading the posts about you and your family and I can't imagine how hard it would be for you all.

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  45. Emily, I feel as if I know you from reading this blog for a year or so now, and I am devastated for you. With the impending joy of your child's birth, this must be particularly hard to accept. I wish you all the very best, and I will be reading and supporting you as you travel along this hard path.

    Gabbie x

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  46. Hugs and prayers to your family.

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  47. All I can do is send you a big hug and all my love! ❤...but especially prayers. 😚

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  48. Praying and thinking of you daily. Words fail, but I hope you feel the love and encouragement from the world around you as you head onto this difficult mountain! XO

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  49. Emily, my thoughts and prayers with you! Be strong, I believe everything will turn out the good way! I know it might be something you won't take under consideration, but please read about ALMOND SEEDS and VITAMIN C in fighting cancer. There are also many ways to fight it and I know he will! Hugs!

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  50. I'm sure that this is a hard and stressful time for you, but just remember who is truly in control. I find it comforting to know that I can lean on the everlasting arms when hard times come. Praying for you and your family!

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  51. My thoughts are with you and your family. Cancer cab be beaten, even as aggressive and advanced as this (from my family's experience!). Never give up! Xx

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  52. My thoughts are with you. Hes strong. You're strong. Be positive, or try to xxx

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  53. So sorry to hear this, as hard as this news is Emily, try to stay as positive as you canxx sending you so much love from Irelandxxxxx

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  54. Sending a ton of hope, love and faith to your family. Cancer is depressing and usually it doesn't manifest at all, which is really scary, but I know you're a strong woman and that makes for your husband too. There are a lot of advancements on the cure for cancer these days. I'm praying you and your husband will get through this. Keep positive :)

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  55. My thoughts are with you all. Stay strong and don't be afraid to let others help carry you through this time. Much love x

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  56. My heart is breaking for you, your husband and your family to have to endure something so challenging. My thoughts and my prayers are with you all. Modern medicine is a wonderful thing.

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  57. I am so so sorry that you have been given this awful news. Thoughts are with you, and I hope that you can find strength in each other during this terrible time. x

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  58. Praying for you and your family, for His heavenly guidance and the peace that surpasses all understanding.

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  59. Looking at the beautiful photos, it is hard to even imagine that the words your write are "real and true". Sending you positive thoughts but no words can truly ease the shock and worry that you must all feel right now. Big Hug!

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  60. My thoughts are with you. Your family is an exemple of happiness for me and I am sure you will fight this cancer! Don't give up!

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  61. I was looking forward your next post on the blog and what i have read today made me very sad. Cancer sucks as they say but you know what? Fight this asshole.
    And i'm sure that all of us readers will be honored if you share whatever you feel like or need to share. Don't worry about not being strong sometimes.
    I'm sending you love from Spain,
    kasia

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  63. So sorry to hear this! I can't imagine. Sending prayers your way.

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  64. Prayers for you and your family! Thank you for so openly sharing your story- praying for Hope and peace in the midst of the pain.

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  65. My thoughts are with your family, please don't give up.
    Sending prayers and positive thoughts FROM pORTUGAL ***

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  66. My thoughts and prayers for you and your family.

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  67. Praying for heeling and peace. God does miracles and you have so many praying for you. Lee your head up.

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  68. Praying for healing, wisdom for decision making and finding a new normal.

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  69. A red head myself, from a red headed family I know too much about melanoma. My fiance has all the precursors, and I have numerous family member at different stages. It is a terrifying reality. I'm so sorry that this happened you you and your family. You two are such amazing role models and your strength is incredibly inspiring. I will keep you all in my prayers. I wish there was more that I could do for you.

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  70. I cannot fathom where you've found the strength to write this, as just reading it has left me teary and saddened for you all. DO NOT give up. YOU ARE STRONG. HE IS STRONG. my thoughts go to you all x

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  71. Blessings to you and your family, in Jesus' name.

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  72. I cannot imagine what you must be feeling right now. Please know that my family will be praying for yours. You are a role model as a mother and wife. Sending the warmest thoughts your way!

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  73. This is awful, and so unfair. I'm so very sorry. Sending you thoughts of strenght and hope, along with warm hugs.

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  74. Although I rarely comment on here, I've been following you regularly on your blog/FB/Instagram for some time. My heart absolutely breaks for you. I will be praying for not only your husband, but your entire family. Please keep us posted. God bless. <3

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  75. My thoughts and prayers are absolutely with you! Hang in there and cherish every moment! You are not alone and hope is not lost. Remember that with God, all things are possible! Sending you love!

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  76. I was crying. My thoughts are with you and your family. Much love from Hungary

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  77. My hear breaks for your and your family. Sending lots of positive thoughts and prayers!!

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  78. Sending prayers and thoughts your way.

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  79. This completely breaks my heart sweet lady. Praying for wisdom, healing, and God's mercy on your dear family.

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  80. I am so sorry to hear this... I seriously cannot even imagine. You are so strong to even be able to write this & share. Sending lots of positive thoughts your way.

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  81. Thoughts prayer and love goes out to you ❤️❤️❤️❤️

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  82. Praying for Martin and your family Emily. This is now how things should be. My heart goes out to you. Praying for wisdom and healing and many, many more years together.

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  83. Thinking of you and your sweet family through this difficult time. My heart aches for you all. Praying for your family, but especially for you as you support your husband and for your husband as he fights his battle with cancer.

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  84. OMG Emily..
    I've been following your blog since years now and even if I absolutely don't know you and your family personally, your post really touched me this morning. As if we were close friends.
    I'll pray for you and send you all the positive energy I can. Martin needs to be confident and strong.

    I attended a conference last week of a french guy living in Canada called Gilles Lartigot. It was about the dangers of the modern food. We can today establish a link between food and some sorts of cancer. And even if changing our alimentation will not cure a cancer, there is evidence that this aspect must be taken into consideration during therapies.
    If I tell you this, this is because there was a woman who had been healed and who testified how a dramatic alimentation change - she became vegan - helped her to beat her cancer (she was 28). I'm not vegan myself but this conference really shacken me up, so I wanted to share this with you.

    My thoughts are with you and your family.

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  85. So many thoughts and prayers for you and your sweet family.

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  86. Oh Emily my heart just broke reading this! I can't even imagine what you are going through! But you both are extremely strong people and you WILL get though this! You have a powerful and healing God by your side and know we are are all praying for you, Martin, and your little ones! Stay strong and he will beat this!!

    <3 Shannon
    Upbeat Soles

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  87. Crying with you Emily, and praying for you. Love and hugs!

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  88. Many prayers and good thoughts going up for you and your family.

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  89. I am so sorry to hear about this, you and your family are in my thoughts xx

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  90. thoughts and prayers for your family.

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  91. Oh Emily & Martin, you guys are such a blessing to me. I know that I will be thinking of you guys all day and night. Do continue to do things as usual as possible, especially for your children, but at the same time, stay strong for each other. If I lived closer, I would help watch your kids and care for your home. I'm also 35 weeks pregnant, so I understand that the stress is probably not helping you now. Remember to put God first.

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  92. Emily- I am so sorry to hear you have to go through this. I am sure you are completely overwhelmed with decisions and information right now, but please discuss immunotherapy with the oncologist. There are some drugs on the market now, like the PD-1 or CTLA-4 inhibitors http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/25891173, or some more experimental options that are showing great success. http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/21498393
    Maybe you can get Martin into a trial at the NIH. He is young and in otherwise good health, and he can fight this.

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  93. My heart and prayers go out to you.

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  94. My thoughts and prayers are definitely with you and your family, Emily. My sister was diagnosed with leukemia in 2010 shortly after my wedding and has since passed away, so I'm all to familiar with the waves of emotion that you must be feeling right now. The treatment and illness will definitely take a toll but the best advice we received from my sister's doctor was do not break our routine and to keep everything as normal as we possibly could. That is exactly how we tackled everything, too! Together as a family we supported my sister on good days and bad and encouraged her to look past what she was going through and focus on the positive days ahead. Best of luck to Martin, you and your kids in the coming days, weeks, months and years. While we may just follow each other in blogland, don't hesitate to reach out to me!

    XO, Jaime
    RegallySoled.com

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  95. I'm so sorry that you're going through this. Even though we don't know one another know that I love you and I am praying for you and your family. I have been a long time reader of your blog and to see the love you two have makes me wish that I might share the same happiness with someone one day. This is an incredibly hard time for you and I hope that you both will have peace of mind in the coming weeks. Think positive. A friend of mind was diagnosed with cancer and they told her she didn't have long and she ended up living way past ten years. So never think your situation is hopeless. God sees what you are going through and he will help you.

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  96. I am so so sorry. We will be praying for strength and healing in the days to come, and wisdom for the doctors.

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  97. Sending so much love, hope and prayer

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  98. I'm praying for your family, I know this is a hard time for your family and I pray the lord gives you the strength during this time and heals him. I pray that things get better for your husband.

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  99. Emily, I am so sorry that you all are going through this. But your husband is young and strong, and it's amazing what the medical advances are in cancer treatment. *hugs* I'll be praying for all of you! Courage!

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  100. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family, stay positive. Have you checked out the B-17 supplement, check out the reviews, I swore if anyone I knew got cancer I would try this out for them. http://www.amazon.com/BodyMe-Organic-Capsules-Association-Certified/dp/B00GA3SLOS/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1430399778&sr=8-1&keywords=b17

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  101. So so SO many prayers for you and your family! I'm praying for you now and will continue to pray for you during this entire process.

    I hate cancer.

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  102. Oh Emily. I am so sorry to hear that. We will praying for you.

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  103. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers during this trying time xo

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  104. So incredibly sorry that your family is going through this. You will all be in our prayers and we are sending all the positive vibes we have your way.

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  105. Emily, my heart breaks for you as I imagine how difficult the road ahead will be. It is hard to find comfort in the face of a prognosis like this, but remember that in heaven Martin will be made whole again and rest in the arms of Christ. Truly, my thoughts and prayers are with your family.

    Love from Delaware,
    Steffi

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  106. Emily and Family, This is truly heartbreaking news. I wish you the best in the upcoming week on coming up with a game plan that feels right. I will pray for God to surround you with love and comfort, that he help you both think clearly, and that he lay his healing hands on Martin. Sending love and (((((hugs)))). Tina~

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  107. Emily I'm so sorry to hear this. You and your family will be in my prayers <3

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  108. You will be in our thoughts and prayers for strength and hope. As we crown the Blessed Mother at our school tomorrow, we will say a special prayer and ask her to watch over your beautiful family. Be strong and take care of yourself as well as your family.!

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  109. I cannot believe this and have to say first and foremost that your strength is amazing. I know you called for prayers before and I wondered, yet hoped, that it was nothing that would be this serious. Again, I am praying for you and hope that a miracle can come through for you, Martin and your amazing kiddos. XOXO Chelsea

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  110. My heart just broke reading this. I am so sorry :(

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  111. I'm so sorry. Be strong and whatever treatment you choose remember to try and laugh and have some fun. It might sound silly but when it comes to cancer good mood is very important and very helpful. All my good thoughts sent to you and your family.

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  112. Oh Emily, I can't imagine what you've been going through! You are so brave, and my heart aches for you and your sweet family. Cancer is so tough, but I have many friends and family members who have beaten it against all the odds (including my Mom when I was Ellie's age). With God anything is possible. I will be praying that His peace, comfort, and healing will rest on your family. Sending love your way!

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  113. Dear Emily,

    I have never met you, but I always read your blog and I can tell you that all my thought and prayers are with you and your family. Have you guys consider raw vegan diets to fight cancer? I have heard good stuff about that and could be something to try. There are also some new researchs about magnetic treatments. Anyway, a positive thought is the seed of a positive result. You have all our love. ♥

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  114. No words, just praying! Much love to you both.

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  115. Hi Emily,

    I'm a potuguese follower of your blog and life, and I just wanted to say how much I love the way you live your life and family..So tender, a good example for everyone. I'm not religious, but I'm spiritual, and I cannot only say that my thoughts will be on your family, and anything that you might need and somehow I might help I'm foward, even with an ocean between us.

    Hope everyone will get to normal life as it can get, and fight, with all your heart because anything is possible :)

    Kisses to you all

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  116. Prayers headed your way from me and from the comments, many more ppl.

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  117. Dearest Emily~
    Although I don't know you personally, I've been following your blog for a couple of years now. Through your writing and posts I've been able to tell that you have such a beautiful soul and my heart just aches for your and your family. I will certainly be praying for you and Martin, and I hope that you are able to draw strengthy from all of us here who will have you in our thoughts.

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  118. Dear Emily,

    I have never met you, but I always read your blog and I can tell you that all my thought and prayers are with you and your family. Have you guys consider raw vegan diets to fight cancer? I have heard good stuff about that and could be something to try. There are also some new researchs about magnetic treatments. Anyway, a positive thought is the seed of a positive result. You have all our love. ♥

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  119. Emily -

    I can only imagine how difficult this post was to write - thank you for being brave enough to share this with your readers. For those of us who've been reading you for a long time,or even those who have just started, we've invested in your life, which means we're along for the ride.. sending you love and prayers and letting you know that you're not alone in this journey.

    I know that sometimes doctors can't be as optimistic as we'd like, but there is hope even with advanced cancer prognosis. For some encouragement, here are stories of people, like Martin, who have defied the odds. He can too, and that's what your prayer warriors will be praying for.

    https://www.aimatmelanoma.org/stages-of-melanoma/stage-iv-melanoma/stage-iv-survivor-stories/

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  120. So sad to hear this. Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way <3

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  121. Praying for your family, Emily.

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  122. My thought are with you and your family during these difficult times!!!

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  123. My prayers for your family and especially your sweet Husband.

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  124. Hugs...and prayers for a miracle!

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  125. Emily, I am so sorry. I've had several friends and family members that successfully fought cancer. They all treated as aggressively as possible with modern medicine. I've also heard that Kris Carr's Crazy Sexy Cancer was helpful. She advocates for changing your diet to combat cancer but it should be noted that her cancer isn't aggressive. It still might be helpful used with medical treatment. I am sending you positive energy and I know your whole family will get through this.

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  126. May God comfort you and fill you with all wisdom in this time. Prayers for great and miraculous healing.

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  127. Oh, Emily. So sorry to hear this news. I'm sending so many good vibes and hugs your way. xo

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  128. Dear Emily!

    I am following your blog since the birth of my first child last year. I had quite a tough pregnancy and reading your blog entries really helped me to stay positive and everything went well in the end.
    I just wanted to let you know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. I admire what a strong woman and amazing mum you are and how you manage to combine to work and always be there for your children, always looking gorgeous at the same time!
    I hear from a friend of mine who is an oncologist that the treatments for melanoma cancer are really advanced and the healing chances have so much improved today!

    Love,
    Hanna from Germany!

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  129. I wish you guys the best of luck. Know all my thoughts and prayers are with you

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  130. I'm so sorry to hear this aweful news! I myself was recently diagnosed with stage 3a melanoma and am currently in treatment (interferon). So I totally understand the gamit of emotions you guys are feeling. I belong to a few groups on FB that have brought me a lot of laughter, peach and understanding (check out Melanoma Warriors (anything goes)). Please feel free to ask me anything and if I can't answer it I can put you in touch with some great warriors who can!

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  131. Sending love and prayers and all the positive vibes I have to you and your amazing beautiful family.

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  132. Oh that's so terrible! Brought tears to my eyes just reading it :( my thoughts are with you all, I hope somehow that everything works out fine. Stay strong xxx

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  133. Look up Cancer Killers. The dr that wrote it I believe also has stage 4 melanoma. And the truth about cancer webpage and facebook. Use all means to treat, include diet and holistic approaches!

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  134. My thoughts are with your family sending you love and happiness even in this difficult time. I know many people will suggest things and I hope I can share what I know about disease as well. I would suggest to look for psychotherapist services. I know it may sound odd but what I know to be true (at least for me) is that all diseases have a root in a psychological cause...i know it may sound woo woo for some but I myself have worked with one of the best psychotherapist in Los Angeles and I have been free of several diseases myself. I hope is Ok to share with you my therapist website:

    http://lifedesigncentre.com

    Again wishing you love and happiness and I know Cancer is as real as you allow it to be and as someone else said Cancer can be beaten!

    Never give up! Love!

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  135. My thoughts and prayers are with your family during this difficult time.

    Much Love!

    -Stephanie
    www.skinnylattemommy.com

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  136. Psalm 91:4. My prayers are for your family today.

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  137. I don´t even know how to give you comfort in this dificult times. You, your husband and your family will be on my prayers. And the only thing that I can give you as a fan of your blog who didn´t post only have been wathcing is that you keep doing what you always did, don´t ever change and keep fighting don´t ever give up any hope or any fight! Keep walking forward, God knows the way. <3

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  138. Oh no, I'm so sorry. Prayers for you and your husband and family.

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  139. Oh Emily, how devastating. I've been a quiet follower for some time and admired your beautiful family. I'm beside myself with this news. My heart goes out to you all and I promise my most fervent prayers on your family's behalf. Much love to you all. Again, I'm so sorry for this unnerving news.

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  140. Oh my gosh, I don't even have the words to express how sorry I am that your family has been given this horrible news. I will keep Martin, your family, and his team of medical professionals in my thoughts & prayers.

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  141. Oh my gosh, such terrible news. I am actually crying. You are such an inspiration to me as a family and a couple. Reading a blog is a peek into another person's life and so I feel like I kinda know you, and it saddens me to read these grave news.
    My thoughts and prayers are with you <3

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  142. Emily, I'm so sorry. I had a miscarriage last week and I was just thinking a few days ago that you are so lucky to have had 5 babies in 5 years and I was so jealous of you. As much as my heart is broken over losing my first baby I can't fathom the prospect of losing my husband. I would be lost without him. We hope for a family as large as yours and you have been such an inspiration to me to watch how sweet and loving you and Martin are even though I'm sure that can be a struggle at times with so many little ones. I am so sorry for you and your family and I will praying for all of you.

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  143. Emily, I cannot tell you how sorry I am to hear this news. I know the fear and grief you all are feeling right now. Praying for total healing and recovery for Martin, and for strength for you all to face this together. Sending hugs and prayers from Texas.

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  144. I'll be praying for you and your family for wisdom and peace as y'all go through this difficult time.

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  145. I'm so sorry, that is heartbreaking news! My thoughts are with you and your family.

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  146. I'm so sorry to hear this Emily, sending all my love and prayers your way.

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  147. I've been a long time quiet reader of your blog for a long while...and I just had to write. I am so sorry for your news. I'll be sending my thoughts and prayers to you, your husband, and your beautiful family.

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  148. Prayers are about to come on strong.

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  149. Hey Emily,
    I felt so bad in my heart as I read this... The only thing I can say to you is stick to prayer and please read Psalm 55:22. I will pray for you, and hope with all my heart that this turns to be ok.

    Invisible hugs.

    Jessica

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  150. Hey Emily,
    I felt so bad in my heart as I read this... The only thing I can say to you is stick to prayer and please read Psalm 55:22. I will pray for you, and hope with all my heart that this turns to be ok.

    Invisible hugs.

    Jessica

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  151. I am so, so sorry to hear this, Emily. My family and I are sending many prayers and much love to you and yours. xoxo

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  152. Dear Emily,

    I have been reading your blog for ages now but have never left a comment, mainly because I'm not the commenting-type. I just wanted you to know that I scan your blog for new posts on a daily basis and that I have always admired how happy, confident and creative you are. To me, it's amazing that you're letting us in on your private life and loved ones, your pregnancies and love-filled marriage, and how grateful you are for everything you have. I don't dare to say that I know what you're going through but I do know what it's like to have loved ones diagnosed with cancer - I lost my grandfather through prostate cancer a few years ago and fear the day my mother's breast cancer may come back for good. In a way, following other people's lives through their blogs or youtube channel allows me to escape all of my worries for a couple of minutes each day. I sincerely hope that everything will turn out well and that you can hold on to your happiness, no matter what happens. I hope it gives you a tiny bit of consolation that people from all over the world are praying for Martin's health and your family's strength.

    I'm so sorry for you. Please don't lose faith!
    Lots of love,
    Julia, from Germany

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  153. Dear Emily,

    I have been reading your blog for ages now but have never left a comment, mainly because I'm not the commenting-type. I just wanted you to know that I scan your blog for new posts on a daily basis and that I have always admired how happy, confident and creative you are. To me, it's amazing that you're letting us in on your private life and loved ones, your pregnancies and love-filled marriage, and how grateful you are for everything you have. I don't dare to say that I know what you're going through but I do know what it's like to have loved ones diagnosed with cancer - I lost my grandfather through prostate cancer a few years ago and fear the day my mother's breast cancer may come back for good. In a way, following other people's lives through their blogs or youtube channel allows me to escape all of my worries for a couple of minutes each day. I sincerely hope that everything will turn out well and that you can hold on to your happiness, no matter what happens. I hope it gives you a tiny bit of consolation that people from all over the world are praying for Martin's health and your family's strength.

    I'm so sorry for you. Please don't lose faith!
    Lots of love,
    Julia, from Germany

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  154. Prayers for you and your sweet family...

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  155. Dear Emily&Martin, I've been a silent reader of your blog and admired/envied your beautiful family from a long distance but now I just had to write... I am devastated by this news, and can only hope that somehow you will beat this awful illness. I am sending you positive vibes and my thoughts are with you and your beautiful family during these difficult times!

    Love,
    Eszter from Hungary

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  156. Praying for you and your beautiful family!!

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  157. Emily,

    You are one of the bright spots of my days. I love reading your blog and seeing your instagram photos. I saw this post this morning and I have been unable to stop thinking about you guys all day. My heart breaks for all of you. Cancer, no matter what kind or what stage, is heartbreaking to deal with. My family has had its own battles with cancer so I know what a tough situation you're in. Stay optimistic and I will pray for you and send you and Martin love and healing thoughts. I am hopeful that there course of action that brings you all through this trial victorious in the end.

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  158. Thinking of you & sending prayers your way!

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  159. poor thing, wish you courage and unexpected recovery

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  160. Deeply saddened by this news. Prayers for healing and strength! your Dover friend
    psalm 28:7

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  162. Sending my heartfelt prayers to your beautiful family. I hope you can find some comfort in the words and prayers from all those sending the same to you, and that you can also find hope and comfort in the Word of God in the Bible.

    All my love, and light,
    Emma

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  163. Oh Emily, I am so heartbroken. I am sending all of my positive thoughts and prayers your way. Stay positive. Thinking of your family often.

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  164. Praying. Telling all my family to pray. My heart breaks with you, The best medicine is the Lords love. Hoping for all the time with your sweet husband. xo

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  165. You know I was praying for you sweet Emily before I even knew what was going on with Martin. The prayers have not stopped and I have asked numerous people I know who've never even read your blog to Pray along with me. I pray for comfort for you all, healing for Martin, strength, courage and above all that you never lose your faith and it brings positive results your way. Hugs, love and prayers will never stop sweet, beautiful girl.

    livingoncloudandreanine.blogspot.com

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  166. Hey there,
    I am sure you are just in shock...I can only imagine the roller coaster ride you are all on. I will pray that this time of decision making is clear, that the best possible people to help, be put in your path, and that your family is covered in God's love and comfort.
    Hugs and blessings,
    DeLana

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  167. Hi Emily, I am very, very sorry to hear the terrible news about your husband's cancer. I will be praying for a miraculous recovery, and strength for both of you. I absolutely cannot imagine what you are going through. God is good, no matter what happens.

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  168. I prayng for you
    very very shock for me
    by italy
    one kiss and much love for you

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  169. This breaks my heart to read. Although I'm a newer reader of yours, I've come to admire your precious family and all the stories you share. I hope that whatever treatment you decide on will reap some good results, I wish you, your husband, and your children the best <3

    -Rae
    studentsandstyle.wordpress.com

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  170. I am so saddened to hear about your husband's diagnosis. If you have the time, please check out the book "Anticancer: A New Way Of Life" by David Servan-Schreiber. It was written by a doctor who had cancer. Very helpful information about making yourself healthier to fight cancer. I know a few people who have stage IV melanoma and have outlived their prognosis. They believe that has been, in part, due to making lifestyle changes in diet, exercise, and stress-reduction. As a long-time follower of your blog and cancer survivor myself, I am keeping your family close in my thoughts and prayers.

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  171. I am so saddened to hear about your husband's diagnosis. If you have the time, please check out the book "Anticancer: A New Way Of Life" by David Servan-Schreiber. It was written by a doctor who had cancer. Very helpful information about making yourself healthier to fight cancer. I know a few people who have stage IV melanoma and have outlived their prognosis. They believe that has been, in part, due to making lifestyle changes in diet, exercise, and stress-reduction. As a long-time follower of your blog and cancer survivor myself, I am keeping your family close in my thoughts and prayers.

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  172. I'm so sorry. That's such a horrible thing to go through. I think it's great that you shared it though because it's always nice to get support from other people, who have gone through something like this.

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  173. I couldn't say it better then it's been said many times above but all our love and prayers for you and your family. xo

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  174. I cannot imagine what you are all feeling and thinking, but am praying for God's wisdom, comfort and healing for you and Martin and your families during this time of trial. You will certainly choose the best treatment plan possible, and soldier through whatever is necessary to heal Martin... but please do not forget what we are told to do in James 5:13-15. I don't believe that faith in God's healing prevents us from availing ourselves of all of the medical help we have available, but do believe that ultimately, it is God who ensures our healing, and we should seek His help as He instructs. Dear Emily... you and Martin are strong in your faith in the Lord, and He will not desert you. As the many comments above reflect, we as your internet friends, love and support you and your family and shall be praying continuously.

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  175. Emily, I will be praying for you and your sweetie, wishing you strength and happiness!

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  176. omg, I'm in tears reading this. I am so so sorry and I cannot even begin to imagine what you're going through right now. My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your beautiful family. xx

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  177. “The will of God will never take you where the grace of God cannot keep you.”

    Praying for strength, peace, and wisdom for your sweet family!!

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  178. Be strong, your family will be in my prayers. XO

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  179. Sending love and prayers to you, your husband and family.

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  180. Oh gosh, I am so sorry to hear this news about your husband. Sending prayers and good vibes your way.

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  181. I only recently started following your blog via your Pinterest hairstyles and already I feel so much for your family. I am sure that if you needed to start a GoFundMe or other crowdfunding campaign we would all rally behind you—I know I would.

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  182. My heart just broke reading this. No words. I'm so sorry your world has been turned upside down. I've got 4 littles and cannot imagine. My thoughts and prayers are with you all for strength, peace & healing.

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  183. I am so sorry to hear about this news. I hope you look into alternative healthcare methods such as The Healing Codes as they can help ease the symptoms and side effects if not cure altogether. Sending so much love and prayers to your family. --

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  184. I can't even begin to fathom what you are going through. I will be mindful of your family in my prayers. I know that God hears and answers our prayers. He is mindful of reach of His children and we'll send angels to bear you up in these times of trial.

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  185. I don't want to believe this. Martin was one of my best friends growing up, and I am in shock to learn about this. So many prayers and lots of love being sent your way.

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  186. oh my god . i'm so shocked .!! it's hard to find words ..
    everytime you're posting photos I'm thinking 'what a perfect family
    life you have . a wonderful man and so lovely children'
    why must there be so shit-things like cancer .!!
    lovely emily I wish you so much strength and love . you deserve
    a wonderful life and I know that you are strong .!!!
    all the very best - I'm thinking of you ..

    sarah

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  187. Cancer is an ugly, no good, rotten word. I know what you're feeling right now, as just going through this with my dad a few years ago. The shock never goes away- after every appointment, every treatment, it starts to become the norm, find 5-10 minutes of your day for "normal me time" or even a quiet corner and a piece of chocolate. Remember to let people help you (even if it's hard for you, it makes them feel better and half the time the food they bring isn't that bad). Take lots of pictures, write everything down (my mom had an "angry" journal and swears by it), and make the biggest deal out of even the smallest of milestones. You got this! Prayers and hugs

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  188. There are just no words. I'm so sorry. My heart aches for you. I've long admired the two of you. You are such a beautiful match, inside and out. I'll keep you in my prayers, and please don't feel any pressure from us as readers. You do whatever feels right! Best wishes.

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  189. Hold on to the hope and the faith, because those are precious in desperate times, but also easily lost. I was an exchange student for a tear, and my dear host mother has beat four cancers, all sizes and shapes and stages. There is hope! Never give up! Enjoy life, and enjoy each other.

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  190. you are just such s brave woman! I wish you all the strength in this hard time, all the best for your love and I am sending all my prayers out to you and your family!!!!!

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  191. Oh Emily, I am so sorry. My husband also has cancer, so I know a good bit of what you're feeling. You and Martin and your family will be in our prayers daily. After the shock wears off, you will get to the point where it's a new kind of normal and it'll be a bit less terrifying and overwhelming. And don't listen to any prognoses either. My husband has had cancer for 12 years, and he wasn't expected to live nearly this long. He has more good days than bad.

    Just remember that so many of us are praying daily for you.

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  192. This is such sad news... I'm sending lots of love and strength your way, my thoughts go out to you and your family!

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  193. Your courage in the face of such obstacles is inspiring. I truly wish the best for you all and certainly the prayers, wishes and positivity that all your friends, family and readers are sending will hopefully show through in good ways as you make some tough decisions.

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